I'm thankful for:
1. The Spirit, without whom I would not make it through the day.
2. God's grace
3. God's Word
4. God's patience
5. Reading, and the break it provides
6. Good food (especially chocolate and cheese, but not together)
7. The nature center, and the ability to walk in it.
8. Church
9. Generous neighbors
10. bodyrock.tv
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Happy Birthday Odin!
Happy birthday little man! I love you so much. You are such a joy to us and I am so thankful that you are in our lives. Here's what's going on around our house:
- Odin is walking! He finally decided that he was ready to walk across the room for his birthday week. He is still a bit wobbly, but he can walk where he wants to now. I think he was just waiting till he knew he could do everything he wanted ;)
-Odin understands a lot of words, but he still isn't saying many. He says 'mama' whenever he wants something, 'du' when he sees ducks, and occasionally 'dada' for dad.
-We are teaching Odin to get things and bring them to Mom. He does it fairly well.
-Odin can now point to what he wants. He also can identify people in pictures (well, Mom, Dad, MeeMaw, and sometimes his uncle).
-Unfortunately, Odin has learned how to throw major fits when he doesn't get what he wants. I'm happy that he is determined, but hitting temper tantrums this early scares me.
-We are just getting over Odin's first (and hopefully last) case of croup. He sounded terrible, but took being sick well. He is certainly a fighter.
-The day after his birthday, completely out of nowhere, Odin started clapping. He now claps when he is happy and as he is deciding if he wants to throw a fit. He also gives high-fives.
-Odin 'zerberts' our tummies. He will pull up his dad's shirt, and blow on his tummy till he makes noise. He is so proud of himself when he does it.
What he loves:
-The vacuum. He gets excited when I say the word, and loves to push it around. Let's hope he stays enthusiastic about chores.
-Food. He is getting to have a pickier palate, but he loves eating what Mom eats. His current favorites are spagetti, tangerines, rice, rice cakes, rice crackers and (*cough*) cookies.
-Dancing. He loves music, especially the theme songs for my TV shows. He gets so happy and instantly dances when he hears them.
-Walks. We go for at least one walk a day, and Odin loves being outside.
-Odin's favorite game is taking things out and putting them back into a box. He also loves his stacking cups and playing 'pretend' with Mom's kitchen tools.
He dislikes:
-The carseat. He throws a major fit getting into it, but is doing better about calming down while we drive.
-Being separated from Mom. Separation anxiety is in full swing. I can't even go to bootcamp workouts anymore, because he has a major meltdown with Dad.
-Doctors. As soon as we met our new doctor (who I love), Odin started screaming. I think he remembers getting his blood drawn at 6 months, and has associated the experience with doctors.
Odin is growing up so fast, it feels like he does something new every day. We love you and are praying you inspire virtue.
- Odin is walking! He finally decided that he was ready to walk across the room for his birthday week. He is still a bit wobbly, but he can walk where he wants to now. I think he was just waiting till he knew he could do everything he wanted ;)
-Odin understands a lot of words, but he still isn't saying many. He says 'mama' whenever he wants something, 'du' when he sees ducks, and occasionally 'dada' for dad.
-We are teaching Odin to get things and bring them to Mom. He does it fairly well.
-Odin can now point to what he wants. He also can identify people in pictures (well, Mom, Dad, MeeMaw, and sometimes his uncle).
-Unfortunately, Odin has learned how to throw major fits when he doesn't get what he wants. I'm happy that he is determined, but hitting temper tantrums this early scares me.
-We are just getting over Odin's first (and hopefully last) case of croup. He sounded terrible, but took being sick well. He is certainly a fighter.
-The day after his birthday, completely out of nowhere, Odin started clapping. He now claps when he is happy and as he is deciding if he wants to throw a fit. He also gives high-fives.
-Odin 'zerberts' our tummies. He will pull up his dad's shirt, and blow on his tummy till he makes noise. He is so proud of himself when he does it.
What he loves:
-The vacuum. He gets excited when I say the word, and loves to push it around. Let's hope he stays enthusiastic about chores.
-Food. He is getting to have a pickier palate, but he loves eating what Mom eats. His current favorites are spagetti, tangerines, rice, rice cakes, rice crackers and (*cough*) cookies.
-Dancing. He loves music, especially the theme songs for my TV shows. He gets so happy and instantly dances when he hears them.
-Walks. We go for at least one walk a day, and Odin loves being outside.
-Odin's favorite game is taking things out and putting them back into a box. He also loves his stacking cups and playing 'pretend' with Mom's kitchen tools.
He dislikes:
-The carseat. He throws a major fit getting into it, but is doing better about calming down while we drive.
-Being separated from Mom. Separation anxiety is in full swing. I can't even go to bootcamp workouts anymore, because he has a major meltdown with Dad.
-Doctors. As soon as we met our new doctor (who I love), Odin started screaming. I think he remembers getting his blood drawn at 6 months, and has associated the experience with doctors.
Odin is growing up so fast, it feels like he does something new every day. We love you and are praying you inspire virtue.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Thankfulness Part 2: Difficulty
Perhaps I have a mis-shapen soul, but I am afraid that my soul needs a bit of trouble. I'm not saying that I like discipline, hardship, or pain (quite the opposite), but I find that my heart wanders from God in the good times. These last couple of years have brought their fair share of trouble but in looking back I am thankful. I am thankful to be reminded of the goodness of the good in my life, and long for heaven when I see this world's brokenness. So in no particular order, I am thankful for these hard blessings.
1. Financial Difficulty. Right now we are loosing money on a monthly basis, and it is stressful. Our situation is a result of the choices that we have made, and I am grateful for the reminder that what we have comes from God. God will provide, and we can trust Him to take care of us. I am thankful that we haven't gone hungry, we have a warm and comfortable home, and that my husband has a good job.
2. Salah's Job. The assignment that Salah took on this year is very nontraditional and difficult. He teaches at a community day school, which is a step past the continuation school (read: kids in and out of juvy). According to what he says, the students often have difficult attitudes and struggle to learn, or even apply themselves. I really don't understand what this is like for him, but he often comes home tired and worn out. I am thankful for the reminder that parenting matters, and I am setting up Odin for the rest of his life. I am thankful that I was blessed to have a good home life and people who cared about me so that I didn't get into trouble. I am thankful that I have to rely on God to get us through this season.
3. A reminder to live a good life. Last year we took care of my grandpa, who is in failing health and has dementia. Since he doesn't remember much, it was very interesting to see where his mind went. He frequently told the same stories and reminisced about the good times. This is going to sound terrible, but he lived a fairly selfish life. He rarely talked about his children, was most proud of wrestling a bully in college, and did not speak about God. My family has a lot of drama right now, and while this is partially because of the choices that certain people have made in their own lives, it is also a result of the way my grandpa parented. It has been really difficult dealing with my family, but it has been a good reminder that I need to daily live my life to the fullest, looking to Jesus. When I come to the end of my life I really hope that I don't loose my mind, but if I do, then I want to re-tell kingdom building stories, pray repeatedly, and speak lovingly of my children. I prefer positive examples, but sometimes negative ones can be just as effective.
4. My Elimination Diet. For almost a year I have chosen to eliminate allergenic foods from my diet so that Odin wouldn't have reflux. For a while all I ate was turkey, pears, potatoes, and rice. I have slowly been able to add things back into my diet and at this point I don't eat dairy or chocolate and try not to each much wheat. I am so thankful for the opportunity to be very intentional about what I eat, and having to sacrifice for someone else. I now better understand fasting, and hope to continue this practice in the future. I have been able to re-experience food (which has been fun). I have learned what sacrifice feels like when the person doesn't understand what you are doing for them. I love you Odin, and am glad that I could lessen your tummy troubles!
5. Loneliness. We have really tried to keep Odin from getting sick (again) this last year. Fortunately, it has worked. Unfortunately, it often means that I don't get out much and have to limit our contact with others. We often have to cancel play dates because of sickness and avoid nursery like the plague. Some days are harder than others, but in general I am thankful for the opportunity to appreciate my friends more and rely on God when others aren't around.
6. Separation from Family. There are times that I hear others talk about their awesome parents, or are able to go on dates without having to find a babysitter and I am very jealous. But I am thankful that I have family to miss, and that my relationship with my mom is such that I wish she was around. Hopefully things will change, but until then, I am glad that I can develop other friends.
7. Being Tired. These days I am tired most of the time (and no, I'm not pregnant again!). I'm tired because I have an awesome, but very crazy/energetic, one year old who NEVER STOPS. I am thankful that he is part of my life, even if it means less energy.
8. Chores. A mother's life is always full of never ending laundry, dishes, vacuuming, dusting, and cleaning. Some days I hate it, but I am learning to appreciate it. I am thankful that we have a house to clean, food to prepare, and a baby who dirties clothes. My life is full, even if it is partially full of monotony. I am blessed.
9. Odin's Rough Year. I know I keep talking about it, but Odin's sickness really scared us this past year. People say that babies' personalities start very young, but Odin was so different as a baby. At first, I just thought he was very even tempered and quiet, but really he was just super sick. I am thankful that this time is over, that it made me realize how fragile life is, for restoring relationships, and pushing me to rely on God.
10. Distractions. I feel like my life is full of them, but I am learning that the distractions put things into focus, emphasize what is important, and make me take my life one moment at a time.
1. Financial Difficulty. Right now we are loosing money on a monthly basis, and it is stressful. Our situation is a result of the choices that we have made, and I am grateful for the reminder that what we have comes from God. God will provide, and we can trust Him to take care of us. I am thankful that we haven't gone hungry, we have a warm and comfortable home, and that my husband has a good job.
2. Salah's Job. The assignment that Salah took on this year is very nontraditional and difficult. He teaches at a community day school, which is a step past the continuation school (read: kids in and out of juvy). According to what he says, the students often have difficult attitudes and struggle to learn, or even apply themselves. I really don't understand what this is like for him, but he often comes home tired and worn out. I am thankful for the reminder that parenting matters, and I am setting up Odin for the rest of his life. I am thankful that I was blessed to have a good home life and people who cared about me so that I didn't get into trouble. I am thankful that I have to rely on God to get us through this season.
3. A reminder to live a good life. Last year we took care of my grandpa, who is in failing health and has dementia. Since he doesn't remember much, it was very interesting to see where his mind went. He frequently told the same stories and reminisced about the good times. This is going to sound terrible, but he lived a fairly selfish life. He rarely talked about his children, was most proud of wrestling a bully in college, and did not speak about God. My family has a lot of drama right now, and while this is partially because of the choices that certain people have made in their own lives, it is also a result of the way my grandpa parented. It has been really difficult dealing with my family, but it has been a good reminder that I need to daily live my life to the fullest, looking to Jesus. When I come to the end of my life I really hope that I don't loose my mind, but if I do, then I want to re-tell kingdom building stories, pray repeatedly, and speak lovingly of my children. I prefer positive examples, but sometimes negative ones can be just as effective.
4. My Elimination Diet. For almost a year I have chosen to eliminate allergenic foods from my diet so that Odin wouldn't have reflux. For a while all I ate was turkey, pears, potatoes, and rice. I have slowly been able to add things back into my diet and at this point I don't eat dairy or chocolate and try not to each much wheat. I am so thankful for the opportunity to be very intentional about what I eat, and having to sacrifice for someone else. I now better understand fasting, and hope to continue this practice in the future. I have been able to re-experience food (which has been fun). I have learned what sacrifice feels like when the person doesn't understand what you are doing for them. I love you Odin, and am glad that I could lessen your tummy troubles!
5. Loneliness. We have really tried to keep Odin from getting sick (again) this last year. Fortunately, it has worked. Unfortunately, it often means that I don't get out much and have to limit our contact with others. We often have to cancel play dates because of sickness and avoid nursery like the plague. Some days are harder than others, but in general I am thankful for the opportunity to appreciate my friends more and rely on God when others aren't around.
6. Separation from Family. There are times that I hear others talk about their awesome parents, or are able to go on dates without having to find a babysitter and I am very jealous. But I am thankful that I have family to miss, and that my relationship with my mom is such that I wish she was around. Hopefully things will change, but until then, I am glad that I can develop other friends.
7. Being Tired. These days I am tired most of the time (and no, I'm not pregnant again!). I'm tired because I have an awesome, but very crazy/energetic, one year old who NEVER STOPS. I am thankful that he is part of my life, even if it means less energy.
8. Chores. A mother's life is always full of never ending laundry, dishes, vacuuming, dusting, and cleaning. Some days I hate it, but I am learning to appreciate it. I am thankful that we have a house to clean, food to prepare, and a baby who dirties clothes. My life is full, even if it is partially full of monotony. I am blessed.
9. Odin's Rough Year. I know I keep talking about it, but Odin's sickness really scared us this past year. People say that babies' personalities start very young, but Odin was so different as a baby. At first, I just thought he was very even tempered and quiet, but really he was just super sick. I am thankful that this time is over, that it made me realize how fragile life is, for restoring relationships, and pushing me to rely on God.
10. Distractions. I feel like my life is full of them, but I am learning that the distractions put things into focus, emphasize what is important, and make me take my life one moment at a time.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Thankfulness Part 1
Thankfulness in November isn't exactly original, but I decided that I'd join the bandwagon. I've realized that my heart gets cranky and unsatisfied if I don't regularly practice thankfulness, so I might as well share (or at least record) how I have been blessed. What I am thankful for also nicely corresponds with what is happening in my life, and I like having something look back on and see what life was like with a one year old :)
I know that I won'thave the time be disciplined enough to do this daily, so I thought I'd group post. The first set of things I am thankful for are God's blessings in my life.
1. My husband, Salah. I am so thankful for my husband, and I truly cannot imagine my life without him. He is my best friend, partner, and love. When we first became a couple, he told me that he wanted to encourage me, support me, and challenge my relationship with God. I am so thankful that he has done all three. The more I see other couples, the more I realize that we are (or have let ourselves become) a good match for each other. Although he sometimes drives me crazy, I know that he always has my best interest in mind and is genuinely on my side. We both have issues, but somehow our issues work together and (mostly) push the other to be better. I cannot imagine a better life partner and I am so grateful for the 8+ years of our marriage.
2. My son, Odin. I love that little man! Before becoming a parent, I didn't understand how much you could love someone (and so quickly!). It has been my great pleasure to watch Odin grow, learn, and explore. He brings joy to my life daily, challenges me to be a better person, and helps me to appreciate the little things (and slow down to see them). I am so glad that he is a part of our lives.
3. My mom. I haven't always been on the best of terms with my mom, or family, but this last year has made me appreciate my mom. She sacrifices for us, and has always been a great example of how to love the Lord faithfully. I am glad she is part of our lives, and hope that she can become a more regular part soon.
4. Healing in my relationship with my mom. This time last year I wasn't sure if I wanted my mom to be part of my life at all, and had no idea how reconciliation would happen. I remember driving home from Bible Study and feeling like the Lord was telling me that He could and would heal our relationship - and I wasn't sure that I believed Him. Odin was VERY sick, and (when we finally told her everything that was going on) she immediately flew down, stepped in, and really helped us work through his issues. She used up 2+ years of time share time so that we could have a place to go out of our toxic apartment, and has regularly been a part of our life since. I am so grateful for God's healing of our relationship and that I can talk to her regularly. God truly is the great Counselor and Prince of Peace.
5. Our health. There is nothing like experiencing a time of sickness to make you appreciate health. I am so grateful that Odin is now healthy (and active and CRAZY) rather than lethargic and fighting for his life! I am grateful that Salah and I are generally healthy and don't struggle with health issues. I am thankful that Odin hasn't caught any crazy/weird childhood illnesses and that even his colds haven't been too bad. Thank you Jesus for our health, may we take care of the bodies you have entrusted to us!
6. Our house (and Long Beach). I never thought I would like living in Southern California, but I love Long Beach. I am grateful for this house, for our friendly and generous neighbors, for the nature center, and for its safety.
7. Friends (especially other moms). I am so thankful for friends. I really need other people to keep me sane. Being a mom is tough, and I am grateful for the other moms who reach out to me and encourage me to keep fighting the good fight through washing dishes, doing laundry, making meals, and wiping noses.
8. Being a stay at home mom. I love being a stay at home mom. I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to spend my days with Odin and intentionally build him up. I love that I get to see every milestone, make him laugh, read to him, and watch him sleep. I LOVE what I do, and there is nothing I would rather be doing than teaching Odin. Salah has sacrificed so much so that I can stay at home, and although we have tough days, I am so glad that I get to stay with Odin.
9. Facebook. It may sound silly, but I am thankful for facebook and the opportunity it gives me to stay in touch with far away friends.
10. Walking. I do a lot of walking: it is the way Odin calms down and goes to sleep. I am thankful that I can get out of the house, fill my body with Vitamin D, meet the neighbors, and exercise. I am thankful that I have found a way to give Odin a break (I think he just has so much energy that he needs to be slowed down sometimes). I am grateful that I have a way to realax that is good for me and my son.
I love my life and these boys!
I know that I won't
1. My husband, Salah. I am so thankful for my husband, and I truly cannot imagine my life without him. He is my best friend, partner, and love. When we first became a couple, he told me that he wanted to encourage me, support me, and challenge my relationship with God. I am so thankful that he has done all three. The more I see other couples, the more I realize that we are (or have let ourselves become) a good match for each other. Although he sometimes drives me crazy, I know that he always has my best interest in mind and is genuinely on my side. We both have issues, but somehow our issues work together and (mostly) push the other to be better. I cannot imagine a better life partner and I am so grateful for the 8+ years of our marriage.
2. My son, Odin. I love that little man! Before becoming a parent, I didn't understand how much you could love someone (and so quickly!). It has been my great pleasure to watch Odin grow, learn, and explore. He brings joy to my life daily, challenges me to be a better person, and helps me to appreciate the little things (and slow down to see them). I am so glad that he is a part of our lives.
3. My mom. I haven't always been on the best of terms with my mom, or family, but this last year has made me appreciate my mom. She sacrifices for us, and has always been a great example of how to love the Lord faithfully. I am glad she is part of our lives, and hope that she can become a more regular part soon.
4. Healing in my relationship with my mom. This time last year I wasn't sure if I wanted my mom to be part of my life at all, and had no idea how reconciliation would happen. I remember driving home from Bible Study and feeling like the Lord was telling me that He could and would heal our relationship - and I wasn't sure that I believed Him. Odin was VERY sick, and (when we finally told her everything that was going on) she immediately flew down, stepped in, and really helped us work through his issues. She used up 2+ years of time share time so that we could have a place to go out of our toxic apartment, and has regularly been a part of our life since. I am so grateful for God's healing of our relationship and that I can talk to her regularly. God truly is the great Counselor and Prince of Peace.
5. Our health. There is nothing like experiencing a time of sickness to make you appreciate health. I am so grateful that Odin is now healthy (and active and CRAZY) rather than lethargic and fighting for his life! I am grateful that Salah and I are generally healthy and don't struggle with health issues. I am thankful that Odin hasn't caught any crazy/weird childhood illnesses and that even his colds haven't been too bad. Thank you Jesus for our health, may we take care of the bodies you have entrusted to us!
6. Our house (and Long Beach). I never thought I would like living in Southern California, but I love Long Beach. I am grateful for this house, for our friendly and generous neighbors, for the nature center, and for its safety.
7. Friends (especially other moms). I am so thankful for friends. I really need other people to keep me sane. Being a mom is tough, and I am grateful for the other moms who reach out to me and encourage me to keep fighting the good fight through washing dishes, doing laundry, making meals, and wiping noses.
8. Being a stay at home mom. I love being a stay at home mom. I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to spend my days with Odin and intentionally build him up. I love that I get to see every milestone, make him laugh, read to him, and watch him sleep. I LOVE what I do, and there is nothing I would rather be doing than teaching Odin. Salah has sacrificed so much so that I can stay at home, and although we have tough days, I am so glad that I get to stay with Odin.
9. Facebook. It may sound silly, but I am thankful for facebook and the opportunity it gives me to stay in touch with far away friends.
10. Walking. I do a lot of walking: it is the way Odin calms down and goes to sleep. I am thankful that I can get out of the house, fill my body with Vitamin D, meet the neighbors, and exercise. I am thankful that I have found a way to give Odin a break (I think he just has so much energy that he needs to be slowed down sometimes). I am grateful that I have a way to realax that is good for me and my son.
I love my life and these boys!
Friday, November 2, 2012
Remembering
Uggh... This is one of those days that I usually pretend that doesn't exist. Today is the 12th anniversary of my dad's suicide. I never know what to feel today, or what to expect. Part of me is sad, part is angry, part hurts and part just doesn't know how to process. Sometimes I don't feel anything and then feel guilty about that. It's not my favorite day, and generally makes me hate the Halloween season in general.
Today usually makes me start asking 'what if' questions. What if he had lived? What would have happened? Would we have mended our relationship? Would I have met/married Salah? Would my life look drastically different? What if I hadn't been rude the last time I talked to him? One part of me knows that if he had lived, our relationship would have been rocky for a while - I had (and maybe still do) have issues with his anger, his part in my parent's breakup, and feelings of abandonment. The fact that he is dead changes my part of reconciliation. There is no present relationship to mend, no current pain to deal with. I "just" have to deal with what has happened in the past. My part is to heal and then go on with life. Although typing that just seems cold. Either way, I am reminded that my life has been shaped by the choices of others, particularly my father's death.
This is the first year that I've dealt with my dad's death as a parent. Last year I was anticipating giving birth that I didn't really have the emotional space to process it. But now, things have calmed down, and I wonder (again) what I'm going to say to Odin about his grandfather. When do you explain to your child that his grandfather committed suicide? How do you say that? I'm beginning to understand why parents keep things from their children (that children think they can handle, be it true or not). What questions will Odin ask? Do I just tell Odin that he died, and then later explain the suicide? As with many things, I don't think there is a right or an easy answer. I won't pretend to say that I know what I'm going to do.
As time passes, I feel that I'm able to understand my dad more, which is actually nice. When I was younger I was very optimistic, hadn't faced many tough choices, and didn't understand how a person could love another yet still hurt them. I'm not anywhere close to suicidal, or even depressed, but I have experienced loneliness, intense frustration, heartbreak, no-win scenarios, and being backed into a corner. I wish that he had been able to reach out and get help, but I now better understand him feeling trapped. I still feel hurt, even after all this time and a better understanding of him.
I am grateful that things have gotten easier. My dad was far from a perfect parent, and I still have scars from his actions. But I don't feel trapped by them anymore. While I absolutely want to give Odin my best, I have to say that I feel some comfort that if I can move past my dad, Odin will (by the grace of God) be able to move past my inevitable parenting mistakes (not that I want to hurt him, but I know I've already given him a few bad habits). I am so glad that God heals our hearts, even if part of the process is painful remembrance.
I miss you dad.
Today usually makes me start asking 'what if' questions. What if he had lived? What would have happened? Would we have mended our relationship? Would I have met/married Salah? Would my life look drastically different? What if I hadn't been rude the last time I talked to him? One part of me knows that if he had lived, our relationship would have been rocky for a while - I had (and maybe still do) have issues with his anger, his part in my parent's breakup, and feelings of abandonment. The fact that he is dead changes my part of reconciliation. There is no present relationship to mend, no current pain to deal with. I "just" have to deal with what has happened in the past. My part is to heal and then go on with life. Although typing that just seems cold. Either way, I am reminded that my life has been shaped by the choices of others, particularly my father's death.
This is the first year that I've dealt with my dad's death as a parent. Last year I was anticipating giving birth that I didn't really have the emotional space to process it. But now, things have calmed down, and I wonder (again) what I'm going to say to Odin about his grandfather. When do you explain to your child that his grandfather committed suicide? How do you say that? I'm beginning to understand why parents keep things from their children (that children think they can handle, be it true or not). What questions will Odin ask? Do I just tell Odin that he died, and then later explain the suicide? As with many things, I don't think there is a right or an easy answer. I won't pretend to say that I know what I'm going to do.
As time passes, I feel that I'm able to understand my dad more, which is actually nice. When I was younger I was very optimistic, hadn't faced many tough choices, and didn't understand how a person could love another yet still hurt them. I'm not anywhere close to suicidal, or even depressed, but I have experienced loneliness, intense frustration, heartbreak, no-win scenarios, and being backed into a corner. I wish that he had been able to reach out and get help, but I now better understand him feeling trapped. I still feel hurt, even after all this time and a better understanding of him.
I am grateful that things have gotten easier. My dad was far from a perfect parent, and I still have scars from his actions. But I don't feel trapped by them anymore. While I absolutely want to give Odin my best, I have to say that I feel some comfort that if I can move past my dad, Odin will (by the grace of God) be able to move past my inevitable parenting mistakes (not that I want to hurt him, but I know I've already given him a few bad habits). I am so glad that God heals our hearts, even if part of the process is painful remembrance.
I miss you dad.
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